I think all too often people see me as having my act together. I have had many people tell me I'm some sort of rock star or super hero. If anyone was thinking that, let me just clear things up for you a bit...my life, more than the fairytale people have spun...is often like this … Continue reading Poo under paper
Saying thank you for the dirty dishes, and the stinky laundry, and the messes all over the house has been tossed in my face enough times to make me want to gag. Jesus promises us that God will provide each of us for the day at hand. Mercy is new every morning because we get enough for each day. And I can find freedom in knowing that today, there will be enough for today.
I don't have the strength right now to walk with intense faith, but I can, from my emptiness, declare God's faithfulness and goodness over my life. So right now I'm choosing worship over worry. Choosing, intentionally, to drown out my fears and concerns with songs that declare my God's faithfulness, kindness, and goodness.
I don't know if the months of silence gave it away or not, but I've been struggling for a while now. Struggling to find the words to say. Struggling to make one more meal (and clean it up). Struggling, a lot of days, to get out of bed. And it has led to such a … Continue reading Victory through vunerability
This morning was exactly what I needed. I don't know about you, but I have always felt a little out of place in my life. There are only a handful of people, I think, who have known and seen the real me. Not that I intentionally hide who I am. I just tend to be … Continue reading When the church family really is family
It was a reminder to me of His new mercies. Available, always.
What if all the plans and dreams were leading up to this? What if all the uncertainties were a set up? And what if the answer is better than anything I could ever imagine? And what if it isn’t?
The whole thing makes me stand in awe really. Not of my husband, although he is awesome. But of the way life’s timing, God’s plans, they never quite look the way we want them too. From the outside, I would never have looked at this season of our lives and said, you know, this would be a great time for you to pursue your degree. From all practical standpoints, it wasn’t.
My heart's desire is to cultivate an atmosphere of peace and joy in our home. A welcoming place where we can all explore life together and have fun. One where we learn and grow together. I know it takes work to create a space with that atmosphere, but today I stumbled on it by simply being available and saying yes to the things that presented themselves throughout our day.
The reason, I think, people always tell you to keep dating after your marriage is fear of growing distant and cold to the person you share your life with. But I don't think it is dating that protects you from that