Saying thank you for the dirty dishes, and the stinky laundry, and the messes all over the house has been tossed in my face enough times to make me want to gag. Jesus promises us that God will provide each of us for the day at hand. Mercy is new every morning because we get enough for each day. And I can find freedom in knowing that today, there will be enough for today.
I don't have the strength right now to walk with intense faith, but I can, from my emptiness, declare God's faithfulness and goodness over my life. So right now I'm choosing worship over worry. Choosing, intentionally, to drown out my fears and concerns with songs that declare my God's faithfulness, kindness, and goodness.
What if all the plans and dreams were leading up to this? What if all the uncertainties were a set up? And what if the answer is better than anything I could ever imagine? And what if it isn’t?
The whole thing makes me stand in awe really. Not of my husband, although he is awesome. But of the way life’s timing, God’s plans, they never quite look the way we want them too. From the outside, I would never have looked at this season of our lives and said, you know, this would be a great time for you to pursue your degree. From all practical standpoints, it wasn’t.
My heart's desire is to cultivate an atmosphere of peace and joy in our home. A welcoming place where we can all explore life together and have fun. One where we learn and grow together. I know it takes work to create a space with that atmosphere, but today I stumbled on it by simply being available and saying yes to the things that presented themselves throughout our day.
Slow. Slow down. No really, slower. It's like this refrain that plays in my head daily. I'm nearly 3 months post-op, and I'm still hearing the same words from the Lord. SLOW DOWN! At first it was pretty simple to move slowly. I literally could not move fast. But as I've recovered, gotten stronger, been … Continue reading Practicing the art of slow
Let me set the scene. Reading lesson. Now teaching my kids to read has been my favorite thing so far with the two who are already readers. In our house, we don't start any formal education until a child is showing reading readiness. Before that it is simply learn through play. Once they show they … Continue reading I just wanted to scream
Before our move...we'll really before we listed our house for sale...I was really good at dinner. I mean, I had a menu planned. I had all my ingredients. Each kid had their own night of the week they got to help me cook. I was a badass at dinner. (And my breakfast baked goods were … Continue reading Sometimes you win at dinner
This morning I realized I disappeared after venting about how rough the first day back at school was. Like maybe the thing ate me whole and pooped me out again. And while there were moments that felt that way, I did survive the first week of school for the new year. I definitely left the … Continue reading All the undone things
Today marked our first day back at school, in what seems like forever. Maybe it was, perhaps a little too long. I'm always a little slow to get started when we take a break. But throwing a major injury to my knee, and my husband being out of town, and then surgery...well admittedly it took … Continue reading First day back blues