As I've been surviving this, what seems never ending, season of hard, I've been trying my hand at new things. I took up watercolor painting which I love. Desperately. That started simply one night as I wept in my bed, worshipping, wondering when it would ever end, and why were we walking through all these … Continue reading Wonky Pots Still Hold Plants
I have a confession. I am high skilled at the art of failing to follow through. I can spitball ideas and plans with the best of them. I can even begin in the project, but when it comes to finishing, well... I'm not saying I never finish anything. I've got at least as many books … Continue reading Permission Granted
Since I took a small hiatus from sharing life, I thought maybe a quick catch up was in order. Although many of the things I'm going to share really require their own space here. Because a lot has happened. And very little of it good.
In fact, we found ourselves handed one poop pie after the other over the past year and a half.
Saying thank you for the dirty dishes, and the stinky laundry, and the messes all over the house has been tossed in my face enough times to make me want to gag. Jesus promises us that God will provide each of us for the day at hand. Mercy is new every morning because we get enough for each day. And I can find freedom in knowing that today, there will be enough for today.
I don't have the strength right now to walk with intense faith, but I can, from my emptiness, declare God's faithfulness and goodness over my life. So right now I'm choosing worship over worry. Choosing, intentionally, to drown out my fears and concerns with songs that declare my God's faithfulness, kindness, and goodness.
I don't know if the months of silence gave it away or not, but I've been struggling for a while now. Struggling to find the words to say. Struggling to make one more meal (and clean it up). Struggling, a lot of days, to get out of bed. And it has led to such a … Continue reading Victory through vunerability
It was a reminder to me of His new mercies. Available, always.
What if all the plans and dreams were leading up to this? What if all the uncertainties were a set up? And what if the answer is better than anything I could ever imagine? And what if it isn’t?
The whole thing makes me stand in awe really. Not of my husband, although he is awesome. But of the way life’s timing, God’s plans, they never quite look the way we want them too. From the outside, I would never have looked at this season of our lives and said, you know, this would be a great time for you to pursue your degree. From all practical standpoints, it wasn’t.
My heart's desire is to cultivate an atmosphere of peace and joy in our home. A welcoming place where we can all explore life together and have fun. One where we learn and grow together. I know it takes work to create a space with that atmosphere, but today I stumbled on it by simply being available and saying yes to the things that presented themselves throughout our day.